March 2010
and in that instant...
..that chemical-induced lapse of consciousness. i broke everything. i feel pieces of my life falling around me. losing one of the most important people in my life…mother fucker. why do i have to break everything sacred? because I’m fucking stupid. I hate not being in control…my head is still fuzzy and I can’t remember anything. Goddamn. I don’t know what to do…
February 2010
yay for daybreak.
human interaction can exist once again.
wake up.
i’m tired of living for you. i believe that it’s time to start living for me again. i know that i broke you. but i can’t be in your debt because of it. i need to live for me…otherwise…i’m not really living at all.
i'm feeling pinned down here.
vulnerable and succeptible to everything.
I need some company…
Fucking help me.
I’m bleeding out.
everywhere i look you're all i see.
just a fading, fucking reminder of who I used to be.
max
missamandamarie:
math extravaganza tuesday?
we didnt do shit yesterday.
i wish you woulda stayed for cake.
it was so good.
ill save you some if you’d like
i didn’t want to separate you from your time with kevin. and i would love some cake. as long as there is coffee.
[ruiner]
[the ruiner]’s got a lot to prove, he’s got nothin’ to lose, and now he made you believe [the ruiner] is your only friend, yeah he’s the living end to the cattle he deceives. the raping of the innocent, you know [the ruiner] ruins everything he sees,
now the only pure thing left in my fucking world is wearing your disease
[the ruiner]’s a collector he’s an...
“The worst crime is faking it.”
– Kurt Cobain
: : : Church your causing me the bleh →
allthaticandoisbreakmyselfintwo:
…
it became a relevant point of interest for me because everytime i went. they were talking about something i was going through at the time. then one day, i had this upsurge of emotion and this inexplicable feeling that i couldn’t ignore. if you’ve got nothing…
i agree. and i’m glad i’m the one telling you this and not some...
i'm trying to pick up pieces of my heart.
and it’s like they’re made of razorwire and glass. i keep gashing my hands open and leaving deep-seeded scars.
: : Church your causing me the bleh →
allthaticandoisbreakmyselfintwo:
…
if you don’t believe. don’t play the game because of the people. if you have no interest in wanting to believe or trying to get something out of it like learning or accepting, stop going. because that makes you a user. something i utterly am disgusted by.
…
it became a relevant point of interest for me because everytime i went. they were talking...
: Church your causing me the bleh →
Well, I am really. Honestly, I dont believe a damn thing they say at that place. At youth today we talked about some ninety nine year old dude fucking his ninety year old wife and they had a kid.
Impossible
Yet, the excuse of “God did it” is thrown out, and for me, it’s bullshit. That is not a…
if you don’t believe. don’t play the game because of the people. if you have no...
split my face and spill my blood. the tears ran...
max.
missamandamarie:
allthaticandoisbreakmyselfintwo:
missamandamarie:
comeover.
we need to have another math party extravaganza.
:D
although no time constraints.
it’s a date lol.
saturday?
sounds lovely.
