Where I disappear and hide
I think dreamy things as I’m waving goodbye
So I’ll spread out my wings and fly” —“Umbrella Beach” - Owl City.
…when you see the one you love with someone you KNOW doesn’t care about them as much as you do? I mean…how can they not see what they mean to you? and they throw it away on some other loser who isn’t even worth considering. Fuck that. If they loved you…they’d stop being with the other person and be with you. because that’s love. it’s not full of games. Today’s the day I’ll fade away.
..and I feel like I hate myself a little bit more as each one passes. idk. I feel weak. Like I gave you control. As much as I had tried to fight it. As many times as I pulled away because of it. I’ve surrendered and become what I never wanted to. It’s so hard to live when I can’t stand the thought of waking up. When everything is a surreal blur.
ignorance is your new best friend.